Just....

Hi, mikorin here.

So what and where should I write this time? Lately and these past few months, life has pull that motherfuvking joke on you card. To the point that makes me wonder, where did I do wrong? What did I do that makes my life is so fuvking miserable? My whole life felt like a punishment. Is this a punishment for me? 

But seriously speaking, it just getting worse day by day. Poverty, anxiety, sadness, depression, stress, it's all in me right now. I'm sick of  it. I'm tired of it. I'm not gonna said I'll end my life coz IT'S TOTALLY NOT WORTH IT COZ I KNOW I WILL ROTTING IN HELL IF I DO KILL MYSELF.

So 'kill myself' is totally not an option. It's a no no. (Even sometimes I DO have that thought came across my mind. ugh I feel so sinful.)

So what should I do? Even if I want to find solution, even if I want to let it all out, even I want to destressed it, I CAN'T do that. Why? because I'm so fuvking poor that if I want to do things I want, I can't and that's making me feel much worse. How should I solve this? How should I solve this? How should I handle this?

Human is a bunch of fakers, and some people still encourage me to have hope for human but sorry. I had already lost the hope for humanity way too long ago. It's just me here. And you know how human works? There's only two group exist - the manipulator, and the manipulated. And I choose to be the manipulator. But not now. (maybe) Bit by bit I tried to manipulated people around me. Maybe they don't notice this but one day, I'll create a big name on my own and that time, I'll be the greatest manipulator. (Evil laugh)

You asking me why? Well I just feel like it. Just wait when I have money, I'm so damn rich and powerful that human will come at my feet. Why? huh hv you ever feel so powerless and poor that you don't even dare to put your head up? Have you ever come across one state in life that you need to choose between food or living? Well yeah I am in that state. But hold my words. I'm gonna change that. One day, I'll be rich, making a lot of money, become famous and I want to show to that motherfucker who's the loser one here. Yeah one day, I'll show them who I really am. The one they make fun of, the one they make a joke of, the one they be friends out of sympathy - is the one that on top of them. They should be scared of me right?

Oh talking about scared. I highkey find it's enticing and fun when I know people is scared of me. Wow that's powerful. So with that in mind, I'll work hard and become powerful and makes people scare to mess up with me. Ugh how I wish I had been a genius. Be genius is one of the element to be powerful. Well of course because no one will ever put you down when you're so damn genius and knowledgeable.

Oh how much I want to say these words on their face. 

- Shame/joke on you baby

- Who's the loser here?

- Go back and look in the mirror before coming at me.

I wish that time will come. When that times come, I'll make my family the most respectable and powerful family. Do you know how much those motherfuckers messing and humiliated my family? Fuvk you society. I don't care if they humiliated me right now but they humiliated my family, making us looks like the most poor, the despicable family ever. Oh fuvk that. Those shithead don't even know what is poverty. Born with silver spoon, living a good life makes them  know nothing about how real world works. This sucks. I'm not psycho enough to make those shithead disappeared from this world but I lowkey (highkey tbh) wish their life one day will hits rocks bottom and feel what is poverty, poor, humiliated mean is. (Am I wrong to wish for that??)

"Do good and people will do good for you." Huh this statement is the real joke here. This statement is a TOTAL BULLSHIT. But yeah. There's some dimwit who still believe in that. Huh funny. That statement does not applied anymore in this world tho. Because of what? Because human is evil. Demon disguise in human.

DEMON

So yeah. The conclusion here is, I will become powerful, unbeatable and I'll end this shitty era of my life. Wait for me mutherfuvker. I'll come like a hungry wolf coming for it's food coz in this food chain, I'm aiming to be the predator. 

Just wait. I'll come for you baby. Just watch your back....

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-No Title-

Hey, Mikorin here.

Idk who will read this but, I hope you hv a good day. Don't worry. Today I won't wrote about my depression but I don't talk about my happy moment too. Why? idk. 

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I always wonder, I always hv this thought in my mind when I saw someone smile genuinely, laughing happily, I wonder, how they can be that happy? I know everyone hv their own sadness and happiness is a choice. But guess what, at this point of my life, I feel like something bad will happen if I'm too happy. I mean, I cant be so happy or I'll attract those bad things. I know it's weird but... *sigh* I just can't let myself happy.

And you know, I hate love and I dont believe in it tbh. Idk why I hv this thought even I've never been in a relationship but for me love is somewhat ridiculous  things. And I don't need it. But then again, I saw couples happily with each companion...it lowkey makes me feel jealous of you. I even envy people who hv crushes. Me? I hv crush. but crush for an idol. What's the point tho...

If normal girl will looks at their crush/bf pictures that filled their gallery but me? I only hv idol pictures. I'm such a fool right? Dont said it. I know I'm pathetic. 

If you asked me why, Idk it either. It just that, everytime I tried to hv crush on someone, it happen that someone already hv his love. Some will said - just go for it girl. Who knows he will look at you. But that's a no for me. You know what I'm more afraid of? I'm afraid of being labeled 'stealer' AGAIN. That was my biggest scar and my spell. More like a curse for me.Enough for me to be called that once.  

But I think my whole life is so pathetic. I've no love interest, and no one love me. I even hate myself and nothing this useless human being (me) can do. Family? I'm not that important. I din't mad. I should hv expected it since I was little. BUt always, always I keep on denying it. And now, Im exhausted. 

What should I do? 

I want to be happy too.

I want to smile again.

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I'm OkAy

The title says it all. I'm okay(in a mocking tone). Idk why I keep on ranting here when I know this will not reach to anyone. 

But I guess since in real life, I literally have no one, this is the best solution. So what should I write here? Okay. I want to share a story. 

This evening, I was supposedly just staying at home and doing nothing but then my father call me and asked if me and my brothers wanna go to the beach. Like hell I would refuse. I love beach. And since my parents sells ice cream there and they planned to bring us to the beach while they on business. Then okay. I'll go. But the thing that makes me snapped is that, yes I went to the beach but I end up WORKING! While my brothers get to spent their time leisurely, happily, but I'm stuck at the store, scooping ice cream, getting scold and etc. They said I don't need to work but since there's a lot of customer, they need help. And of course I gave a hand. But even there's no customer, I still stuck at the store. Okay I'm getting irritated at that. But since I do good - helping my parents, there's no wrong in it right?  Okay the second part of it. There's a car boot sale nest to my selling oversized shirt. I was so excited to choose. My brothers hands me his shirt while he searched for another one, and yeah I hold it while I'm searching one for me. but then AGAIN I was called by my mom to help even there's literally NOT SO MUCH CUSTOMER! and yeah since I want to be a good daughter, I ge help her and hands the shirt back to my bro. And after the shop closed, my father keep saying, there's someone who don't get a shirt - because he supposed to pay for 5 but he paid only for 4 - and he  keep saying to me why I don't get my shirt. I snapped at that. I'm trying to keep my calm by just gesturing that I dont want that shirt just to not make them feel bad but then my bro checks, the shirt he gave me, the shirt he supposed to buy, is not in the plastic. he then yells at me saying why his shirt was not in there. I then yells back at him; "I DON'T KNOW! I GAVE THAT SHIRT TO YOU BROTHER (I hv 3 brothes btw) AND HOW SUPPOSED I KNOW ABOUT IT!" and while we're bickering, my father asked me again, why I did'nt choose my shirt. Again I snapped and finally I exploded and said; "Who the one that called me while I'm choosing shirt? How I supposed to choose one when I was always getting called at the store!" with that said, I run away from them. 

Hurt? of course. It's way to unfair. My brother is not a kid. he can also help them. BUT WHY MUST IT ALWAYS BE ME? Seriously, all this time, I'm alway try to stay positive by saying if I do good, I'll get good things in return. But what do I get? for all the good things I made to my parents? I sounds like I want things in return, but trust me. i just need their attention even for bit. why i don't get it? because in their eyes, I'm a perfect daughter so I can do well on my own.

Huh fuck that. the perfect me is the result of trying to satisfied my parents heart and to make them proud of me. but what did I get? nothing. i don't get anything. and you know what is the conclusion I get today?

I'm tired of being good. Should I try being bad?

Should I try run away from home?

Nope. I won't do suicide. I still have somethings to be achieve.

And I wont do drugs. It's disgusting.

One day, I'll become powerful.

One day, I don't need money from my parents anymore.

One day, I'll make sure people bow down of respect to me.

One day, I'll show to all those MF who looked down at me, how successful I am.

One day, they will see how PERFECT I am.

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Advantages and Disadvantages of Wearing Spectacles

Hi~ Mikorin here…

So what I’m going to talk about today is the advantages and disadvantages of wearing spectacles. Noted that this writing fully based on my personal opinion. There’s no medical aspects talks here.

Let me tell you, I’ve been wearing spectacles since I was 9 years old. Including this year it had been about …. 11 years? Damn that was so long. Hahaha

So what makes I suddenly want to talk about this topic during this scorching hot weather? See…I was washing the dish, a lot of dish at that. So of course I’m sweating since it’s so hot and to do work in this hot weather, who doesn’t shed sweat right? And since there’s sweat at my nose, my spectacles keep sliding down. And that was so ANNOYING!! And that’s the reason why I want to talk about this topic since all the disadvantages of wearing spectacles comes flashing in my eyes.

So, let’s see what are the disadvantages of wearing spectacles.

1.       When you are sweating especially at your nose, the spectacles keep sliding down and trust me, it’s annoying af. Especially when you’re busy doing your works, added with the glasses that don’t want to cooperate in this hot weather, trust me you feel like wanting to throw away that damn annoying glasses. (but you can’t since you need it to do work. Those who live 24/7 with glasses on will understand this.)

2.         When you want to go snorkelling but you don’t want to take off your glasses since you can’t see anything with your glasses off but unfortunately, your glasses doesn’t fit in the google. So you need to take it off. But what happen when you take it off? YOU CAN’T SEE ANYTHING! (my glasses power is over 600 for both eyes…so I’m literally blind when I took off my glasses.)

3.   When you’re forgetful, and you hv high degree of short-sightness, and you forgot where you put your glasses after the last time you take it off, trust me you only can just sit and ask for another person to look and find your glasses for us. It happen to me every single time I took off my glasses everytime I go to salah. End by the time I done with my prayer, I forgot where I put my glasses and yeah.. I ask someone to find it for me. Screw this forgetful mind of mine.

4.       Your friends can easily prank you by hiding your spectacles. And when that happen, you can only sits there, hopeless and begging them to give back your glasses. Ugh I hate it when that happen.

5.       YOU LITERALLY CAN’T GO ON WITH YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU DON’T HAVE YPUR GLASSES ON. I’m the example of person who wears glasses ALL THE TIME accept when I go to sleep and when I do my salah. Without my glasses, I can’t even move and technically I’m like a blind person.

6.       You wasting money a lot on making your glasses. The higher degree you have, the higher amount of money you spend on making the glasses.

I think that’s all for the disadvantages. Anything that I miss? Just added in the comment below.

So let’s move on to advantages of wearing glasses:

       Accept for it helping us to have a better eyesight and maybe someone wears it for fashion, THERE’S NO ADVANTAGES OF WEARING GLASSES AT ALL.

Seriously speaking, I really wish I hv a better eyesight. *sigh*

Y’all that have good eyesight, be grateful and take good care of it okay?

So…let’s end this here.

Bye~

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[Random Talk] Be Grateful, can't you?

Hi, Mikorin here...

What am I going to talk here??? Hmmm...A! about the topic. Yeah. 

Be Grateful

That's my topic for today. Why I choose this topic? Of course because I have an experience about it. Let me tell you this, there's many ungrateful human out there that always demand for more and more without thinking about the others who can't even wishing for it. Somehow it get's on my nerve. Now let me tell you guys two stories to prove to you that there's ungrateful human around us. 

Story 1:       One day, I was scrolling my instagram feed when I decided to open the insta story since the feed is no longer attract my attention. So boringly, I watch my friends insta story when I came to this one specific insta story. When I read the caption that was on the picture, it triggered me. I feel so angry and I said - "Can you please be grateful?"
The thing is, she post a picture of birthday cake that have a birthday wishes. It's from her mom. And she made the caption like this: "Mom, please don't do this again. It' embarrassing. And it's even so late right now."
SERIOUSLY?!!!! Can't you accept that? At the very least, your mom remember your  birthday and she even go to the extend making a birthday cake for you despite it's late! UNGRATEFUL CHILD! Don't you know about me? MY PARENTS EVEN MIXED UP MY BIRTHDAY AND EVEN FORGET ABOUT IT SOMETIMES! (Not sometimes tbh. it's every single time.) And you know what, the last time I remember receiving cake for my birthday is when I'm around 10 @ 9 years old. Or maybe it's earlier from that. It's about 10 years I NEVER received anything for my birthday from my parents. And you ungrateful girl said that to your mom? Seriously I'm pissed. If it was me, I would definitely crying even my mom gave it months late from my actual birthday.   

Story 2:      My roommate friend's is getting married. And my roommate said that the husband is going to take her bestfriend to this one country. It's an oversea honeymoon. And with the name of the country, I gasp. Seriously I envy her. I'm dying to go there. We all are actually. We all wishing we could go to the country that the husband want to brings his wife. But my roommate said, her bestfriend don't want to go there because she don't like that country. And her husband said, he gonna bring his wife to the place his wife like in their next trip.
I was like - DAMN GIRL! can't you just go? haih envy. yes I envy. she get's the offer to go there and she just flatly said she don't want? I'm speechless.... I would even sell my kidney to get money for my vacation there. (Kidding hahaha) But yeah, she should be grateful that her husband is so good enough to bring her for an oversea honermoon. Not everyone can have that right?

Haih tbh I'm tired of these ungrateful people. I don't want to rant about many of those ungrateful brat. But really people need to be grateful of what they have or what they were given. There's many people who don't have what you have and don't get what you get. Be grateful is not a hard things. Accept and be grateful.

Ok I'll stop here. Bye. 

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Random Stuff : I Don't Like It!

Assalamualaikum and hello there~

Mikorin here.

I'm bored ( not really) but I'm writing this because I have the urge to write it. Like the title said - I DON'T LIKE IT! - So obviously I'm going to talk about things that I don't like. Well... how do I said this...erm I think this gonna be a little gloomy  post because I'm in my depressed state. So yeah...the tone is quite serious, tense and irritated (?) IDK...ah whatever. Let's read what I'm going to said down here. Well you can stop reading this if you don't want...

Listen... you guys do know how the world economy right now right? Well in my country, the economy is soooo bad. Even you're a government workers, you can't live comfortably. I mean, there always many shortage. The monthly paid is not enough for my family of 8 to live. Yeah we still have foods, shelter and clothes but just so-so. I don't mean I want a luxurious life but enough to make us comfortable. By comfortable I mean, I don't want people saw us like a very poor family. But stop with that.

Now that the economy state is bad, so my parents start off a business to support us. Well at first it's going well. Until now, still. It's going so well and I really hope it going well in the future too. I know my parents do this for us. Yes I know that. And you guys must be wondering what I don't like about this right? Okay, let me get things straight here.

The things that I don't like here is then I feel like the family bonding time is becoming less and less between us. My parents have a business that only operated when there is night market, or the weekend market. We have an homemade ice cream business. My father still work with government tho. So it's mostly my mom who handle this business. So basically, on weekdays, my father works at office and in the weekend, BOTH of them go out for business and always comeback home at night. 

The income is of course a lot. Like hell yeah, who don't eat ice cream? Now you know the working time of my parents which is from SUNDAY TO SATURDAY EVERY SINGLE WEEK! don't you think with that kind of working hours, we can go for family bonding time?

In the past, during weekend or during holiday, we going for a picnic, have a food feast which my father cook a very complicated delicious meal. We going back to hometown, stayed there for days, or we going for unplanned vacation. Or we just spend time together watching movies and whatnot.

But now? It's all gone and I'm so sad about that. I can't talk about this to my parents because yeah, they doing that too hard. Don't they think they overdo it? Seriously speaking I MISS THE OLD TIME. FOR REAL! Even i'm not good expressing my feelings, i'm cold but i miss all those moment. We can't go for picnic because yeah they're working during the weekend. Obviously we can't go for a vacation, camping and even stayed at the my hometown for a long time because THEY'RE WORKING during holiday. During holiday and weekend is the busiest time for us. Well me and my brothers of course were helping them and getting paid. but still I don't like it! And you know what is the worst? It's Eid Mubarak right now but let me tell you this - we don't go back to hometown but idc about that since my uncles and aunties were there and my grandma house is small so there's no room left for us. The worst things here is WE LITERALLY CELEBRATE IT FOR JUST ONE DAY. fuvk that.

I know I sounds like a brat but be at my place and you will know it. They're busy gathering money. Yeah it's all for our sake and to pay those  debt. But what they miss? The affection they used to give before. I don't know they realize it or not. but for me, they are neglecting this part. I know EVERYTHING needs money - going for vacation, every drop of oil is yelling money but...there's still many things that don't need money. Can't they really take a fuvking rest from this? They becoming workaholic. I know they tired. We all know. They're stressed but can they just chill it a lil bit? Take a moment to rest. JUST REST. Can't they do that?

They don't know but tbh they're one of the reason why I don't want to continue my study. Why? My study fee is fuvking pricey and to keep at that place, to continue there with this crappy shitty economy crisis we have...it just only makes me question my decision. They said not to worry about money but then they kept talking that we don't have money.Then what should I do?!

Ugh I'm so pissed about this matter. And I still hv little brother. I don't really care about myself coz I'm a grown up but my brother? He needs attention. He's still growing. IDK what should I do. This things have it's pro and cons. I try to understand but the more I tried, the more hurt I get. But just to let you know, somehow i don't like it when my parents is too drown in work. 

Maybe not 'don't like. It's more like 'hate'. Yes, I HATE THAT!

Ok that's it. Let's stop.

Bye.

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I love Writing Stories!!!

Assalamualaikum y'all.

When the last time I'm posting all the depression stuff I had? Haha that's post so dark. BUt nevermind. Today is not the thing I want to share here. 

Today I want to talk about my passion - WRITING!! Yeah I do sounds over exited but I just wanna said, how much I love writing stories. Do you want to know why I love writing? Well let me list some of it.

1. I love writing because I feel like I'm being myself - I do what I love.

2. I love writing because I love the feeling of lost in my own imagination. It such a great feeling. I don't lie. Sometimes, I do cry or laugh at the thought of the scene I'm working on. It's such an overhelmed feeling. 

3. I love to write because I love making people dreaming with me. I mean, I tell a story and I really hope the readers get lost in the story like I lost in it when I'm writing it. haha. Erk...why did it suddenly sounds so evil? hahaha 

4. I love writing because it's just me and my character in it. No one will judge me. I do my own story, and I design my character, and even the story not good, I still love all my characters and my  story. It feel like they're my sons and daughter. Haha 

5. I love writing because I can be what I want. To be honest, what I write, and how the characters act is what I wish I can be in real life. The good characteristics of course. I mean, if you hv read my works before, I used to make a strong, independent woman as my heroin because I really wish I am like that in my rel life. (Ok I don't want to talk how I am in my real life. Maybe you can read my post before.) 

6. I love writing because writing can release my stress. Sounds weird but that's a true story. Even I'm not writing a story, mumbling and ranting here, writing random things here even I know no ones gonna read this but still, it give me relaxation. I feel free for a moment. Why not? No one knows you here. So you can be yourself here. 

7. I love writing because it's the only thing I can do. (Except for studying. that's a must for student. (?) right?) Well obviously if I know hoe to draw, I won't writing that long story. Hahaha 

8. I love writing because.......Oh no! I lost idea. okay let's stop here.

So yeah, that's 7 reason why I love writing. There's more actually but I don't figure it out yet. So yeah that's the only reason I can talk about right now. Whoah I feel free. Okay, I'll stop here.

Oh by  the way, you can find me on wattpad at:

@mikorin04

That's my ID. BUT!!! All my story is in Malay. I don't have confidence to write an English story yet. So pray for that time to come so you can read my English story. Haha

Hmm now that I mention about writing in English, wasn't my post lately is in whole full English? Wow that's an achievement for me. *clap* *clap*

Okay (Idk how many 'okay' I write already. LOL) Anyway, have a good day. And 

RAMADHAN KAREEM TO ALL MY MUSLIMS BROTHER AND SISTER ALL OVER THE WORLD!!! 

(It's already second day of fasting here. I'm late. =_=)

So...let's end this. Bye. I love you all who read this till the end. Haha. And don't hesitate to comment anything. I'm good and I love reading it. 

xoxo

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My Random Mumble

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone.

Seriously, I don't know if there is someone reading this post or come across this blog at this round of time. Well it's been a long time since last I update here. Right? Well it's because i'm too lazy to write or ranting here. In fact I don't write a lot these day. Why? wah life is going hard for me. Like REALLY hard. It's no joke. I feel like giving up on life sometimes but NO WAY. that's a big sin. HAHA. Don't worry. what I mean by giving up on life is not that I want to attempt suicide. What I mean by giving up for life is that I don't want to do anything for it. I don't want to think about my future and I totally lost hope about hoping the best for tomorrow. 

Talking about dream and future, tbh I don't have one. Yeah i'm doing my degree study right now but I don't think this is what I want to do. This is the thing I can do, not the thing that I want to do. It's a totally different things. And doing the things that you can do without any passion in doing it, it's meaningless coz you don't feel motivated to do it. I'm talking based on what I'm going through at this moment. It's stressing me out. Even the things that I used to like to learn, it seems so dull and boring.

People always have high expectation of me. My parents, my friends, my teachers...ALL of them said I can do it. they believe I can become success in doing this. BUt I'm the one that learn all this and I'm the one that feel this burden. They don't know my problem. I'm being this far, standing at this point is already an achievement for myself despite my hatred to be involved with people around me. 

Seriously talking, sometimes I think I do need to see a psychiatrist to have my mental checked. I think I've develop social phobia and that's freak me out too. Yeah, someones might think I'm crazy but I think this is serious. I don't even really know myself either. So what people expect from me? I'm having a hard time believing and loving myself so did you expect me to love another people. Please. don't expect me do that. I'm rotten and broken inside even I'm looking tough at the outside. But I do believe i'm strong enough for this problem coz I believe Allah gave me this problem coz I'm more than strong to solve this. Yes. you can do this. (Even I'm crying painfully inside.)

I need strength. I need someone to hug me and tell me that's everything's gonna be alright. But I don't have that person. My parents was so far away from me and I'm alone here, feeling vulnerable. Being too far, and the high cost of studying here makes me rethink about my decision to stay here. I don't want to burden my parents. They hv done a lot to me. I'm 20 y/o and I understand them more. I don't want because of me, my family was in trouble. I don't like hearing my parents borrowing money from there and there just to support my study. I think it's the best for me to stop, and studying where the cost is much cheaper. I can't stand seeing my parents looking like a beggar anymore. I'm sick of that. I want to hv a successful life but if it's cost my parents a hard life, I better stop. I should pursue and chase another dream even if I don't hv one at this moment. 

Oh! I'm thinking about opening a cafe. Is that count as a dream? Well I don't think I can work well under people coz I'm the bossy type. haha I know that part of myself. ...... Ok tbh I'm running out of idea. What's our topic today? Oh my random mumble. What a random things I talk right? Well I wonder if anyone still reading this. This nonsense writing. I guess I can stop here. I'm running out if idea. So yeah, let's stop here. Bye. love you all who read this till the end. also thanks for reading this. 

xoxo

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N.E.V.E.R.M.I.N.D

Assalamualaikum~

How was your day guys? hope everything is fine. 

Aku tengah dengar NEVERMIND by BTS bila tiba-tiba aq dapat ilham nak menulis kat sini. TBH, aq tak tahu siapa yang baca ni. Haha...(I feel like a lonely writer here..) 

Nah~ nevermind. I don't care much. I do what I want, I do what I like. 

So apa yang aku nak merepek kali ni? Hmm let me think...oh about that song. That song is the songs that lift up my spirits when I'm feeling down. Serious. The lyrics. They gave me chills.

Like I always said hundreds of time every day, “Never mind me" 

I can have a taste of failure and frustration and bow my head

We are still young and immature, don’t even worry about it 

Moss surely grows on a stone that doesn’t roll 

If you can’t return, go straight through your mistakes and forget them all 

NEVER MIND

it’s not easy but engrave it onto your chest

If you feel like you’re going to crash then accelerate more, you idiot

Come on

NEVER MIND NEVER MIND  

No matter how thorny the road is, run

BTS - NEVERMIND 

It talks about NOT GIVING UP in what ever you're doing. Yeah NEVER GIVE UP. I know it's hard but we still young. Bear the pain, catch your dream. Dream as high as possible. Kadang-kadang tu kita rasa down kan sometimes for no reason. Tiba-tiba je rasa down. Or kadang-kadang tu kita rasa macam susah betul apa yang kita tengah buat ni. Tapi NEVERMIND! BE STRONG! coz x de ujian yang tak akan habis. Allah bagi kita ujian sebab kita mampu. Percayalah.

Setiap apa yang berlaku, ada hikmahnya. Kita kena terus berdoa, moga kuat untuk hadapinya. Cuma yang penting kat sini, NEVER GIVE UP. Putus asa tu satu benda yang tak baik. Sedih aku tengok bila ada berita anak muda sekarang ada yang mati bunuh diri. Bila tengok punca dia, putus cinta. Dehek.... What a nonsence reason to die tho. Seriously. That was a dumb reason to die. Cinta boleh dicari. Putus cinta tu sementara je. Lagipun buat apalah korang nak bercinta awal-awal sangat? 

Pelajaran korang ke mana? korang dah boleh sara diri sendirir ke nak bercinta bagai ni? Korang dah boleh balas jasa mak ayah korang yang besarkn korang tu? selagi belum, you better get yourself straight! 

Dammit. Aku dah kelaut dari tujuan asal aku punya entry ni. Haha.  Tapi kalau cakap pasal NEVERMIND, pd aku tak habis. Nevermind or dalam bahasa melayunya - PEDULILAH! (direct translate by me. haha)Tapi betul apa. 

PEDULILAH orang nak kata apa pun kalau kita dah berada di jalan yang benar. 

 PEDULILAH orang nak komen ttg fashion sense kita asalkan kita menutup aurat dengan sempurna. 

PEDULILAH orang nak cakap kita sombong asalkan kita tak bercakap benda yang tak berfaedah, sebar gosip sana-sini. 

PEDULILAH orang nak cakp kita anti-sosial pun asalkan kita tak terlalu sosial sampai melampau batas agama. 

PEDULILAH orang nak kata kita kolot sebab tak couple asalkan kita dah jauhi dosa, jauhi zina. Couple tu haram.  

PEDULILAH orang nak kata kita tak cantik ke apa yang penting hati kita tu tak busuk. 

PEDULILAH orang nak cakap kita apa-apa sekali pun, yang penting kita buat apa yang kita suka, buat apa yang boleh bahagiakan diri kita sndiri selagi perkara tu tak langgar batasan agama. 

People always talks behind you even you do a good things. So what's the function trying to impress human? Penat seh kalau hidup nak puaskan hati orang. Manusia ni hati dia busuk wei. Apa-apa yang korang buat, mesti ada yang condemn. So dgaf out them. Let them be...they are not worthy ypur time tho. 

Weh penat aku membebel pikir ayat. BTW, kat bawa ni ada video for that full song. Hope you gonna love it like i do. Huhuhu.

So, bye my beautiful readers. < 3

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PENGUMUMAN TERKINI!

Assalamualaikum,

So kali ni apa pula pengumuman aku? hmm.. pengumuman aku kali ini adalah tntang kewujudan semula tab menu utk RSP. haha ya... aku tahu maybe ramai yang follow cerita tu tapi x sempat nk baca smpai habis sbb aku remove tab menu dia. Sorry friend... Aku buat keputusan terburu-buru.

Jadi sekarang aku wujudkan balik. Aku memang nak edit cerita tu. DEngan tambahan watak, jalan cerita yang lebih logik dan yelah lebih seronok. Hahaha. aku nak buat kat wattpad cumanya aku tak ada masa lagi untuk edit jd, aku open baliklah kat sini untuk korang baca. So harap you guys enjoy this story so much as much as I enjoy writing it for you.  

I think that's all from me.

Oh!!! Another pengumuman penting...

BTS IS MAKING A COMEBACK THIS 13/2/2017!!!

Who's with me say yea!!!! and the concept photo...Damn beautiful... I'm crying....

 #you_never_walk_alone

It's beautiful right???

And this got me speechless....T.T huhuhu

Ok so I left it here. bye. I love you all my beautiful readers 

mmuah ciket < 3

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PENGUMUMAN!!

Assalamualaikum semua...

Sihat? Banjir tak rumah korang? Alhamdulillah rumah aku tak banjir. Hujan je lah yang lebatnya. KOrang semua jangan main hujan ok? Stay healthy.

Ok jadi apa yang aku nak pengumuman ni?? Erm sebenarnya... sebenarnya... 

aku nak kawin

Bwahahahahaha joking obviuosly. Aku masih muda. Tak delah ni nak bagitau pengumuman sikit, kalau korang tengok Rahsia Si Puteri punya tab dah tak ada kan? Hmm itu sebenarnya sebab aku dah pindah dia kat wattpad. Tapi yang kat wattpad tu yang updated version. It will be less cringey dan aku rasa much better. Haha

So aku nak bagitahu, kalau nak baca yang kat wattpad, silalah cari aku di:

@mikorin04

TAPI! aku dah tukar tajuk. Tajuk dia yang baru:

The Heirs

Ha~ mesti korang ingat yang macm cerita Korea tu kan? Haha aku amek tajuk je. Mostly of the plot still sama. Tapi yng syoknya, yng edited version ni maybe ada character baru. Yeay for me!! Excited tak? Excited tak? Well aku excited. Haha

Anyway, hope you guys gonna support me there too. I need your support for me to keep writing more and more.

So bye. Love you < 3

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Me and THAT BOY

Assalamualaikum, semua!!

Hari ini, nak bagi Cik Hati meluahkan apa yang terbuku, apa yang dah lama Cik Hati simpan. So dipersilakan...

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Last year, I met a boy. He's far from my ideal type tbh. But he kept attracting my attention. He just well a lil bit different than the other boy I've met. Nak kata dia baik, yeah dia mmg baik. Dia byk mulut. Haha. Banyak betul cakap dia. Selalu aq nampak dia senyum n ceria je. Seriusly, that's what make him more attractive than other boy. 

Kami dalam satu kelas, satu group. Everything's was so happy for me. Tapi satu hari, aku dapat tahu yang dia dah awek. Sedih gaklah. But nevermind... setakat crush kecil-kecilan ni. Haha but I end up stalking and finding out who his girlfriend is. When I know who...Ah~ I'm no compare to her. She had a petite body, cute face, beautiful smile and nice voice. Me? I'm just a potato. 

Then I tried for almost one whole year to forget this unnecessary feeling. Yelah, orang dah ada awek buat apa nak kacau. Aku tak nak jadi orang ketiga. Cukuplah sekali aku dilabel perampas. It's too hurt to be remembered. Tapi nak akhir-akhir semester, aku perasan yang dia...a lil bit off. I mean something is off about him. Dia daj tak ceria macam dulu. Aku pelik lah and tbh, that.s disturbed me. Serius, aku dah tak ada perasaan pun sekadar kawan dengan dia. Dan tahun tu berakhir macam tu je.

Tahun ni, aku degree. Masuk kelas, dia sama course dengan course yang aku ambil. Hmm...tak tau nak cakap apa. Terkejut jugalah. But yeah, setiap course ada assigmentnya. And this course ask us to do something particular for the assigement. Of course I tried my best. I do something that I never do. 

But...he don't even look at me. He turn his back at me. Am I not worth? Wuu~ macam over pula. Tapi betullah... Haih..it sounds like  me the one that want his attention. So I made a resolution. Never hink, never meet, and never talk about him. This feelings should be throw away. And one of the good things is that the course had over so we don't have any reason to meet again. I'm happy  but why deep down in my heart there's some sadness???

Ah I don't know. Cuma buat masa sekarang, let's not fall in love. (Mcm tajuk lagu BigBang lah pula. haha) Hmm... rasanya macam dah cukup kot buat luahan perasaan. lol. Haha ok sekian, 

Cik Hati < 3

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Kesian kan kat Cik Hati? haih bertabahlah Cik Hati. Moga terus kuat. Haha. I guess that's all. Bye~

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