I really wish I have a diary rn because I want to write the event in detail like a high schooler but I guess this will do. I dont know where to start because there are too many. This going to be cringe also. (Deep down I'm cursing myself for acting like this)
The first thing that I hate being in this situation is that I hate how my body react towards the thought of him. They betray my head and really doing it their own way. My lips? automatically smile when hearing his name. My eyes? automatically finding him. Damn I hate it. Why I cant just be cool and not making it obvious?
People really said that they saw it. My crush on him and I'm...=_=. Even I know there's nothing wrong with it but it's embarrassing. Especially when the more I know him, the more I learn he really is beyond my expectations.
I state early in this semester I want to start something but now, lately, it start progressing well (?) I can said. I never thought this will happen to me. I know he save my number, and I thought I will feel enough by that but nope. I become greedy but I think because of that, I now have chance to talk to him which I think it is great. I am happy. Very happy.
Regarding this day, well being in a group is a bless already. But I never thought of this excessive interaction. The way we joke around, casually speaking, doing things together, God I'm happy. But I realized something, he's a dangerous guy. The way that we don't know what is personal space at that time, hmm but I guess it is because of the class condition and the activity we are doing, makes us like that. But the way he come from time to time to our station, even he's free to go to other station somehow makes me feel.happy? and the thing that every station I go, he is there, a little bit makes me going to hv an overthinking. hahahahahahaha but what to do... it just my natural habit to over analyse everything. But I'm looking forward to the future interaction.
The semester is ending. My wish, my deep wish is that I wish he hv the same feeling like me? hahaha. I mean, wish is not a sin right? I can only wish. I'm not good like other girls, but idk. He is so nice for me to let him go. I wish I can know him better.
It is really okay for me to feel happy right? And it is not wrong for me to pursue someone right? It is better than having regret...
Dear boy, please be single. hahahaha. (until maybe just maybe till the time I call you my boyfriend.) hahahahahahhah (God that cringe much.)
Anyway, I wish the best for me and my first attept of relationship after that incident.
The first thing that I hate being in this situation is that I hate how my body react towards the thought of him. They betray my head and really doing it their own way. My lips? automatically smile when hearing his name. My eyes? automatically finding him. Damn I hate it. Why I cant just be cool and not making it obvious?
People really said that they saw it. My crush on him and I'm...=_=. Even I know there's nothing wrong with it but it's embarrassing. Especially when the more I know him, the more I learn he really is beyond my expectations.
I state early in this semester I want to start something but now, lately, it start progressing well (?) I can said. I never thought this will happen to me. I know he save my number, and I thought I will feel enough by that but nope. I become greedy but I think because of that, I now have chance to talk to him which I think it is great. I am happy. Very happy.
Regarding this day, well being in a group is a bless already. But I never thought of this excessive interaction. The way we joke around, casually speaking, doing things together, God I'm happy. But I realized something, he's a dangerous guy. The way that we don't know what is personal space at that time, hmm but I guess it is because of the class condition and the activity we are doing, makes us like that. But the way he come from time to time to our station, even he's free to go to other station somehow makes me feel.happy? and the thing that every station I go, he is there, a little bit makes me going to hv an overthinking. hahahahahahaha but what to do... it just my natural habit to over analyse everything. But I'm looking forward to the future interaction.
The semester is ending. My wish, my deep wish is that I wish he hv the same feeling like me? hahaha. I mean, wish is not a sin right? I can only wish. I'm not good like other girls, but idk. He is so nice for me to let him go. I wish I can know him better.
It is really okay for me to feel happy right? And it is not wrong for me to pursue someone right? It is better than having regret...
Dear boy, please be single. hahahaha. (until maybe just maybe till the time I call you my boyfriend.) hahahahahahhah (God that cringe much.)
Anyway, I wish the best for me and my first attept of relationship after that incident.
