I think I'm being pathetic. Haha. Post before this, I said I have move on.
Several things happen and I realize, I actually
NEVER EVER MOVE ON.
I can't move on. I can't even find a person to replace him. He's...just so perfect for me. He got everything I want in a man. He's just so perfect.
And you expect me to find a replacement for him? Haha never. He already set a high standard of man for me. Who should I blame? He's gone. I know that. But I miss him. Still.
We never have an official relationship, I know. But me liking him, is not one side. We are mutual but just waiting for a right time to tell each other but he go to heaven first.
I still remember him, I still crying over him. The pain, the regret is eating me. But I'm not being weak. This actually making me stronger. I move forward courageously, thanks to him.
So yeah, the point here is I can't move on from him cos he's just so perfect. I don't care whatever people said, but for me he's perfect. A perfect man for me. There's no one like him. At this moment.
May you happy there love.
I'm finding my happiness here but I believe I will find it someday. Please watch over me. Oh I wish I could meet you in my dream tonight.
Sweet dream for me.
