Hey,
You know what, since that day I cried like crazy because of you and write a handwritten letter for you, I thought I manage to clear my mind, locked my feelings about you.
But I guess it's not a success? But it still better than before. The best part is, I don't feel like crying when I watch it. It's a good thing I think...
Hey,
Only if ... nah. There's no only if. It's ridiculous. I don't know why tho I still and keep thinking about you. I'm such a fool right? I should let you go and remember only the good memories we shared. But here I am... not being able to move on.
No matter how much I move, I keep coming to the same spot. Like I'm running in circle. My feeling too. I want to throw it but it keep coming to me. Am I'm at wrong here? for not being able to forget you? For not being able to move on.
It hurts you know. I feel like crying out loud but it useless. You won't be there anyway. You never be here with me again.
Hey,
You want to know what foolish imagination I used to have about you and I? I thought you have feeling for me too. So just maybe rn, we focus on our path first, so by the time we reunite again, each of us have something to give.
As for my part, I'm becoming pretty, much pretty, no. A lot prettier than before so that I can meet you with confidence. So that I can said, "Hey, I hv like you for a long time." with confidence. I want to a princess for you as you're like shining prince for me. Well maybe I do hv imagine walking with you, chatting and laughing and I would be the happiest person alive at that time. I guess I do imagine how should I act if one day you might bring me to me meet your family. Oh gosh. I'm embarrassed.... that is so dumb right? I'm sorry.
But you go first before all of that. Haha. Now I feel bad for having those thought. In several month it will mark 1 year you left me, you left us. I hope you happy and doing fine there.
I'll miss you and always will miss you. Funny how I can said this words so easily now. But I guess it's only for you because of my regret. The regret of me not being able be brave. I do think that you gave me a lot if hint, but I'm to dumb to take it. IDK. Haha.
So hey,
I want to meet you in my dream tonight. Will you come and talk to me? Or maybe I can saw your killer cute smile? ah I'm being delusional again. Sorry.
I think I should stop now. I need to sleep. Sometimes I feel like I'm pathetic for doing this. But where else should I go. My heartache, my chest is heavy. This feeling is killing me. But I still want to hold it tight coz it somehow makes me a little happy.
Is this what they guilty pleasure?
Ah suddenly I feel a rush of emotion coming and I'm going to cry anytime from now. I really need to stop.
So yeah, bye.
You know what, since that day I cried like crazy because of you and write a handwritten letter for you, I thought I manage to clear my mind, locked my feelings about you.
But I guess it's not a success? But it still better than before. The best part is, I don't feel like crying when I watch it. It's a good thing I think...
Hey,
Only if ... nah. There's no only if. It's ridiculous. I don't know why tho I still and keep thinking about you. I'm such a fool right? I should let you go and remember only the good memories we shared. But here I am... not being able to move on.
No matter how much I move, I keep coming to the same spot. Like I'm running in circle. My feeling too. I want to throw it but it keep coming to me. Am I'm at wrong here? for not being able to forget you? For not being able to move on.
It hurts you know. I feel like crying out loud but it useless. You won't be there anyway. You never be here with me again.
Hey,
You want to know what foolish imagination I used to have about you and I? I thought you have feeling for me too. So just maybe rn, we focus on our path first, so by the time we reunite again, each of us have something to give.
As for my part, I'm becoming pretty, much pretty, no. A lot prettier than before so that I can meet you with confidence. So that I can said, "Hey, I hv like you for a long time." with confidence. I want to a princess for you as you're like shining prince for me. Well maybe I do hv imagine walking with you, chatting and laughing and I would be the happiest person alive at that time. I guess I do imagine how should I act if one day you might bring me to me meet your family. Oh gosh. I'm embarrassed.... that is so dumb right? I'm sorry.
But you go first before all of that. Haha. Now I feel bad for having those thought. In several month it will mark 1 year you left me, you left us. I hope you happy and doing fine there.
I'll miss you and always will miss you. Funny how I can said this words so easily now. But I guess it's only for you because of my regret. The regret of me not being able be brave. I do think that you gave me a lot if hint, but I'm to dumb to take it. IDK. Haha.
So hey,
I want to meet you in my dream tonight. Will you come and talk to me? Or maybe I can saw your killer cute smile? ah I'm being delusional again. Sorry.
I think I should stop now. I need to sleep. Sometimes I feel like I'm pathetic for doing this. But where else should I go. My heartache, my chest is heavy. This feeling is killing me. But I still want to hold it tight coz it somehow makes me a little happy.
Is this what they guilty pleasure?
Ah suddenly I feel a rush of emotion coming and I'm going to cry anytime from now. I really need to stop.
So yeah, bye.
