Hv you done something and instantly regret it?
Yeah I do. Blame my bloody emo depressing shit self, that wrote a long ass message to my mom telling her my concern.
At some part it feel like it was correct but after I came into a realization, IT'S THE WORST STEP EVER!!!!!
Fxxk this. My mom will be so worried. Ugh WHY THE HELL THIS I DO THAT?! THIS STUPID BITCH DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE HERSELF WELL. FXXK.
I regret it but guess what made me realize how stupid and a weakling I am? AGUST D.
You know, I'm such in an emotional mess when I decide to open AGUST D mixtape when suddenly, I feel all energize again. This is funny. It's like I'm almost falling into a dark pit but then something grab me before I fall. (I'll keep to myself the reason why that mixtape is literally having some impact to me.) I know it's not for long. That thing won't let me calm for a long time. But I think it's good even for a moment. I'm fine again. Even with the heavy sound, I managed to calm myself. Impressive wasn't it? Maybe I should listen to AGUST D everytime I'm in an emotional mess. Haha.
Lately, it's been a whole difficult time for me. I'm having a rough time coping with everything in life. I lost hope, lost motivation and lost direction.
Ugh I really wish I'm free from those evil thought that always in my mind. I'm not okay. I know. I'm not mentally stable, I guess. But I hope I still have this rational mind to works just as fine so that I'm not doing something so silly.
Final words for now, goodnight world. I wish I hv a nice dream tonight coz I'm so tired of nightmare.
