1.38 am, living room
Song played : Serendipity - BTS
It's legit 1.38 am in the morning and I'm here, in front of my laptop thinking about many thing. Lately, many things had been running in my head and to be honest, it's exhausted.
A little update about my life: I'm struggling with self-loving and fighting with my depression. But by the time I'm writing this, I'm doing just fine. And actually, this week is my second week of final examination. AND! I have paper tomorrow. At 9 am. Haha (What am I doing tho rn???) Anyway, just to let you know, I don't study for tomorrow and... I guess tomorrow paper will be so fvck up. Haha but I don't really care tho. Because.... I've change my course!!! So the paper I took for this semester is totally useless once I start my new semester in my new course.
So yeah that's a little update about what's going on in my life. Only the major thing. Minor? Too many to tell and I won't recall it since most of it...only miserable memories.
I think I should write one of the things that keep lingering in my mind since...I don't know when. It just suddenly popped up and stay there till another things come up.
What should I talk about right now??? Hmm....
(I was distracted actually by their (BTS) sweet voice in Coffee. I can't focus... T.T)
Ah! Youth and future. I think this topic is kinda related to each other. Like how we always wonder about our future and even lost in the way while planning for the bright future we always dreaming. I've come to the point if my life where I think we should sometimes enjoy our youth, enjoy the moment, count the blessing we had right now than worrying about the not clear future.
I'm not saying to not planning your future but what I'm trying to say here is that, we should enjoy things while it last. Erm...but I don't think we can enjoy much since people like me, who always being chased by anxiety, stress, depressing things and whatnot can't enjoy much. But actually...between those fear, between those worries, there is a definite amount of blessing and things we can be grateful for.
Sometimes we often lost in our closed space and never noticed those small things that can cheer us up a little in the midst of being lost. Having those difficulty in life, struggle with life right now, I think if we can handle it well right now, in the future, when you look back, you will be able to tell the you right now, you have done a good job.
Coz someone said, those difficulty in life is what makes you beautiful and stronger. I know it's hard for you, for me to go through this mess but trust me, we can get over this. Have hope and never lose it. I know there will be the point where you want to stop everything even your life but trust me, taking your own life won't solve anything. It only leave the pain.
So I hope, we all can be together in this. Let's become each other wings and fly together towards the light. Guys, we have been in the dark for too long. Our beautiful soul had start to rot because we don't give it light for it to bloom. Everyone want to be beautiful right? Even this wings grow from pain, trust me, it's what makes it beautiful.
Negativity. Throw it. Toxic people. Left them. My friend always tell me, start from being grateful even for the small things. Our breath, our limbs, our lives. It's all so precious. And stop comparing your life with others. Each and every person have different timeline. Some have their success at the very young age, some doesn't have anything. But trust me, that time will come when you will, one day be at their place where they are right now. The key is? Your will to fight for it. Your hard-work to make it possible. Everyone can get what we want. Dream as high as you can but don't forget to work for it. That's the most important things.
Huh...I write quite a lot...If only I can do this well on my exam paper tomorrow, that will be so much help. Haha.
Time right now: 2.16 am.
Ok I'll stop. I'm done for today. To be honest writing here is somewhat easing my mind. Even I know no one will read this, well if it do, I want to say, you guys are beautiful people and you guys are strong. Whatever shits that happen in your life, it's a process in making you guys much beautiful person.
Even this is not a really deep thought of mine but if IT DOES help someone out there, I will be so happy and I'm crying tears of joy. Serious.
Ok for the second time, I will stop here.
1.38 am thought, end here.
-Bye-
P/s:Pardon my English if it's bad. I'm not an English speaker. Finally, hv a good day guys.
Much love;
Mikorin
Song played : Serendipity - BTS
It's legit 1.38 am in the morning and I'm here, in front of my laptop thinking about many thing. Lately, many things had been running in my head and to be honest, it's exhausted.
A little update about my life: I'm struggling with self-loving and fighting with my depression. But by the time I'm writing this, I'm doing just fine. And actually, this week is my second week of final examination. AND! I have paper tomorrow. At 9 am. Haha (What am I doing tho rn???) Anyway, just to let you know, I don't study for tomorrow and... I guess tomorrow paper will be so fvck up. Haha but I don't really care tho. Because.... I've change my course!!! So the paper I took for this semester is totally useless once I start my new semester in my new course.
So yeah that's a little update about what's going on in my life. Only the major thing. Minor? Too many to tell and I won't recall it since most of it...only miserable memories.
I think I should write one of the things that keep lingering in my mind since...I don't know when. It just suddenly popped up and stay there till another things come up.
What should I talk about right now??? Hmm....
(I was distracted actually by their (BTS) sweet voice in Coffee. I can't focus... T.T)
Ah! Youth and future. I think this topic is kinda related to each other. Like how we always wonder about our future and even lost in the way while planning for the bright future we always dreaming. I've come to the point if my life where I think we should sometimes enjoy our youth, enjoy the moment, count the blessing we had right now than worrying about the not clear future.
I'm not saying to not planning your future but what I'm trying to say here is that, we should enjoy things while it last. Erm...but I don't think we can enjoy much since people like me, who always being chased by anxiety, stress, depressing things and whatnot can't enjoy much. But actually...between those fear, between those worries, there is a definite amount of blessing and things we can be grateful for.
Sometimes we often lost in our closed space and never noticed those small things that can cheer us up a little in the midst of being lost. Having those difficulty in life, struggle with life right now, I think if we can handle it well right now, in the future, when you look back, you will be able to tell the you right now, you have done a good job.
Coz someone said, those difficulty in life is what makes you beautiful and stronger. I know it's hard for you, for me to go through this mess but trust me, we can get over this. Have hope and never lose it. I know there will be the point where you want to stop everything even your life but trust me, taking your own life won't solve anything. It only leave the pain.
So I hope, we all can be together in this. Let's become each other wings and fly together towards the light. Guys, we have been in the dark for too long. Our beautiful soul had start to rot because we don't give it light for it to bloom. Everyone want to be beautiful right? Even this wings grow from pain, trust me, it's what makes it beautiful.
Negativity. Throw it. Toxic people. Left them. My friend always tell me, start from being grateful even for the small things. Our breath, our limbs, our lives. It's all so precious. And stop comparing your life with others. Each and every person have different timeline. Some have their success at the very young age, some doesn't have anything. But trust me, that time will come when you will, one day be at their place where they are right now. The key is? Your will to fight for it. Your hard-work to make it possible. Everyone can get what we want. Dream as high as you can but don't forget to work for it. That's the most important things.
Huh...I write quite a lot...If only I can do this well on my exam paper tomorrow, that will be so much help. Haha.
Time right now: 2.16 am.
Ok I'll stop. I'm done for today. To be honest writing here is somewhat easing my mind. Even I know no one will read this, well if it do, I want to say, you guys are beautiful people and you guys are strong. Whatever shits that happen in your life, it's a process in making you guys much beautiful person.
Even this is not a really deep thought of mine but if IT DOES help someone out there, I will be so happy and I'm crying tears of joy. Serious.
Ok for the second time, I will stop here.
1.38 am thought, end here.
-Bye-
P/s:Pardon my English if it's bad. I'm not an English speaker. Finally, hv a good day guys.
Much love;
Mikorin
