Assalamualaikum and hello there~
Mikorin here.
I'm bored ( not really) but I'm writing this because I have the urge to write it. Like the title said - I DON'T LIKE IT! - So obviously I'm going to talk about things that I don't like. Well... how do I said this...erm I think this gonna be a little gloomy post because I'm in my depressed state. So yeah...the tone is quite serious, tense and irritated (?) IDK...ah whatever. Let's read what I'm going to said down here. Well you can stop reading this if you don't want...
Listen... you guys do know how the world economy right now right? Well in my country, the economy is soooo bad. Even you're a government workers, you can't live comfortably. I mean, there always many shortage. The monthly paid is not enough for my family of 8 to live. Yeah we still have foods, shelter and clothes but just so-so. I don't mean I want a luxurious life but enough to make us comfortable. By comfortable I mean, I don't want people saw us like a very poor family. But stop with that.
Now that the economy state is bad, so my parents start off a business to support us. Well at first it's going well. Until now, still. It's going so well and I really hope it going well in the future too. I know my parents do this for us. Yes I know that. And you guys must be wondering what I don't like about this right? Okay, let me get things straight here.
The things that I don't like here is then I feel like the family bonding time is becoming less and less between us. My parents have a business that only operated when there is night market, or the weekend market. We have an homemade ice cream business. My father still work with government tho. So it's mostly my mom who handle this business. So basically, on weekdays, my father works at office and in the weekend, BOTH of them go out for business and always comeback home at night.
The income is of course a lot. Like hell yeah, who don't eat ice cream? Now you know the working time of my parents which is from SUNDAY TO SATURDAY EVERY SINGLE WEEK! don't you think with that kind of working hours, we can go for family bonding time?
In the past, during weekend or during holiday, we going for a picnic, have a food feast which my father cook a very complicated delicious meal. We going back to hometown, stayed there for days, or we going for unplanned vacation. Or we just spend time together watching movies and whatnot.
But now? It's all gone and I'm so sad about that. I can't talk about this to my parents because yeah, they doing that too hard. Don't they think they overdo it? Seriously speaking I MISS THE OLD TIME. FOR REAL! Even i'm not good expressing my feelings, i'm cold but i miss all those moment. We can't go for picnic because yeah they're working during the weekend. Obviously we can't go for a vacation, camping and even stayed at the my hometown for a long time because THEY'RE WORKING during holiday. During holiday and weekend is the busiest time for us. Well me and my brothers of course were helping them and getting paid. but still I don't like it! And you know what is the worst? It's Eid Mubarak right now but let me tell you this - we don't go back to hometown but idc about that since my uncles and aunties were there and my grandma house is small so there's no room left for us. The worst things here is WE LITERALLY CELEBRATE IT FOR JUST ONE DAY. fuvk that.
I know I sounds like a brat but be at my place and you will know it. They're busy gathering money. Yeah it's all for our sake and to pay those debt. But what they miss? The affection they used to give before. I don't know they realize it or not. but for me, they are neglecting this part. I know EVERYTHING needs money - going for vacation, every drop of oil is yelling money but...there's still many things that don't need money. Can't they really take a fuvking rest from this? They becoming workaholic. I know they tired. We all know. They're stressed but can they just chill it a lil bit? Take a moment to rest. JUST REST. Can't they do that?
They don't know but tbh they're one of the reason why I don't want to continue my study. Why? My study fee is fuvking pricey and to keep at that place, to continue there with this crappy shitty economy crisis we have...it just only makes me question my decision. They said not to worry about money but then they kept talking that we don't have money.Then what should I do?!
Ugh I'm so pissed about this matter. And I still hv little brother. I don't really care about myself coz I'm a grown up but my brother? He needs attention. He's still growing. IDK what should I do. This things have it's pro and cons. I try to understand but the more I tried, the more hurt I get. But just to let you know, somehow i don't like it when my parents is too drown in work.
Maybe not 'don't like. It's more like 'hate'. Yes, I HATE THAT!
Ok that's it. Let's stop.
Bye.
