ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!

How are you guys doing? hope you guys are doing well. Jadi kat sini aku nak buat announcement. Baca memolek yek...

AKHIRNYA, NOVEL RAHSIA SI PUTERI DAH MELABUHKAN TIRAI!!!!!

Ya Allah, Alhadulillah akhirnya tamat juga novel tu. So aku nak berterima kasih bebanyak kat you guys yang sudi baca tu novel. Bertahun juga kan novel tu? Haih banyak sangat halangannya. Ni pun a cilok masa sket nak siapkan. 

Tbh, aku tengah study week ni. Next week aku final. So pray for me guys. Anyway, hope you guys have a great day. Bye~

Jangan segan2 nak usya RSP tu ok?
love ya!

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LIFE IN UNIVERSITY: EXPECTATION VS REALITY

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!!

HEHE hai~ apa khabar semua? Lama dah kan aku tak bercerita kat sini? Haha busy kunun. Tapi since aku tengah cuti study week ni dan sekarang ni budak SPM tengah menganggur kan juga? Haha maksud aku dah habis sekolah kan? So aku rasa macam nak story mori lah kat sini tentang life University ni. Well tahun ni dah masuk tahun kedua kan aq kat sini. So I’m going to share with you about the REALITY OF UNIVERSITY LIFE.

Kenapa aku nak cerita? Well aku pun pernah juga ada kat keadaan korang sekarang. Duduk lepak habis SPM and mula berangan-angan apa yang akan berlaku kat Uni nanti. How exciting was it. (terutama bila berangan bab jumpa ‘cinta’ lah kunun di Uni.) maunya tak berangan dah kalau baca scene2 kat novel and drama, owh how convincing it is. Wasn’t it? Everythings looks so beautiful, sweet sawit dan sangkatan dengannya. Ye dak? So mehlah aq share sikit about the real life here.

Ini aq ceritakan dr pengalaman aku dan keadaan tempat aku blaja sekrang. Tempat lain aku tak tahu. So kalau salah jgn marah aku. Aku mana tahu situasi tempat korang balaja.  *rolling eyes.* Jadi after this, aku akan bagi certain situasi, dan aku buat expectation vs reality nya ok? Got it? Great. So go! Go! Go!

Situasi 1

Situasinya bayangkan korang tengah tunggu bas kat tempat tunggu bas. (obviously tho) So time korang tunggu tu of courselah ramai juga yang tunggu kan? Jadi tengah tunggu2 tu akhirnya bas sampai. Bila bas sampai confirm korang akan berebut nak naik kan? Yelah nak ke kelas ni nnti lmbt lecturer marah. Time tu, tak kira lelaki or perempuan semua pakat nak naik bas. Korang pun samalah. And at that time, there’s a boy beside you wanna get on the bus too. Korang rasa apa akan jadi? Ha pikir pikir….

EXPECTATION

That boy bagi korang naik dulu. Awwh so sweet kan? Nope! Bukan sweet. But gentle. Betul kan? He’s gentleman apa bagi korang yang girl ni naik bas dulu despite the fact that ramai lagi orang yang tengah nak naik. Time tu mesti korang rasa:

“Oh this guy is nice. Gentleman.” Melting sket bak hang. Of course lah kan? Why not. Then it turn out kinda ‘Meeting You at The Bus Stop’ scene. Bwahahahahahah joking~

REALITY

But! Realitinya? Huh that kind of situation never happen. Diulang NEVER! Puilah ada boy nak bagi korang naik dulu sebelum diorang. TAPI bukan tak ada langsung. Ada tapi siiiiiiiiikit dan jaaaaaaaaarang sangat berlakunya. Korang nak kata aq tipu? Huh benda ni jadi kat aku okay. Situasi yang sama berlaku ok. Aq tengah berebut nak naik bas, sebelah aku ada dua budak lelai pun samalah nak naik bas. Berebut. N kawan dia bagilah laluan kat girls naik and that boy cakap:

“Kau tak payahlah nak jadi gentleman sangat. Tak balik nanti kita.”

Lol tahan ketawa aku kat sebelah. Nak kata aq tipu? Berani kerat jari aku kalau aku menipu. Masalahnya situasi ni bukan jadi kat aku je. Member2 aku pun sama juga. In conclusion, there’s no word ‘gentleman’ in term of getting on board the bus.

“Bus come first before woman.”

SITUASI 2

Ok sekarang korang dah naik bas. Bas penuh. So korang berdiri. Sebelah korang , yang duduk di kerusi tu lelaki. Korang rasa apa yang jadi seterusnya?

EXPECTATION

Well of course korang expect that guy will give you his seat. Obviously tho since you’re a girl right? Again term ‘gentleman’ applied here.

REALITY

But sorry to crush that expectation coz they NEVER giving up their seat in real life. Realitinya, the guy just ignore korang yang berdiri sebelah korang. Hahaha. Girls, that kind of thing never happen. Sekali lagi aku cakap, bukan tak ada langsung. ADA! Tapi jaaaaaaarang sangat. So conclusion?

“Seat come first before woman.”
“First come first serve.”

SITUASI 3

Okay habis scene dalam bas. Now kita move pula ke scene dimana korang bawa buku or kertas untuk ke kelas. Korang bawa buku and a lot stuff (yelah student kan?) then you bumped into a guy. Alah macam scene dlam daram tu. So apa yang jadi next?

EXPECTATION

Of course that guy stop and tolong angkat buku and stuff kan? Typical and logically speaking lah kan? Then acah-acah melting coz that guy help you out.

REALITY

Tapi realitinya? Hmmm macam mana nak cakap ek. Aku rasa situasi tu tak akan berlaku kot sebab KORANG PERGI KELAS PUN TAK BAWA BUKU. Bwahahahahaha. Bawa bekas pensel tu kira bagus sangatlah tu. Tapi tak adalah berlenggang sangat gi kelas. Maksud aku, kalau korang bayangkan korang pergi kelas bawa buku besar2 n tebal tu kira bagus sangatlah tu. Hmm tapi aku rasa depend subject lah. Tapi yang pasti jaranglah korang sentiasa dengan buku tebal-tebal tu. Tipically kami pergi kelas dlam beg ada lah buku nota n pen. Buku teks tu kalau ada bawa n kalau rajin bawa. Jadi situasi yang kat atas tu tak berlakulah. Kalau jadi pun, erm…. Well jadilah kot yang macam bayangan korang tu. Erm… one in a billion? So in conclusion?

“Bawa buku tebal2 gi kelas tu kira bagus sangatlah tu.”

SITUASI 4

Katalah korang ada crush kat senior tahun 2 or 3 course korang tu. Korang rasa apa yang jadi?

EXPECTATION

Of course korang akan macam stalk dia. Tak stalk lah. Maksud aku macam, korang berselisih kat koridor fakulti ke, nampak kat café ke, or kalau yang macam dlam novel2 tu, that senior picked on you. Bully you and on but later it turns out he/she likes you. Mana tau kan. Benda boleh jadi. Yang pasti macam korang ada crush kat senior and korang selalu jumpa/nampak senior tu kat fakulti. Aww cute.

REALITY

Reality? Senior pun korang tak nampak! Hahahahahaha. Kalau korang kenal senior paling dekat pun katalah senior tahun 2. Tu pun korang jumpa or kenal or cam-cam muka senior2 ni time ada FAMILY DAY course je. Or kalau ada lah event yang melibatkan tahun 1 n thn 2. Ha time tu jumpalah korang dengan senior. Selain dari tu? Harap perutlah nak jumpa senior. So sapa yang ada crush kat senior2 kat Uni ni, haih I wish you good luck. Meranalah korang tahan rasa nak nampak senior tu UNLESS you’re a complete ultimate superior stalker. Hahaha. Conclusion?

“Having crush on senior is hard.”
*sobbing sound*

SITUASI 5

Now habis cerita di fakulti, kita masuk pula ke library. Ha part ni best sebab banyak kan scene kunun2 romantik kat library take place kan? Alah tipulah tak ada. Dalam novel, drama2 belambak ada scene macam ni. So first scene di library:

1^st scene:

Expectation:

Korang masuk libray nak study. Ramai orang tapi korang dapatlah juga satu meja kosong. Korang duduk situ. Then suddenly ada one guy/girl minta nak tumpang duduk semeja coz dah tak ada meja kosong dah. Yang lain penuh yang mmg penuh. I mean, each table there’s more than 1 person sits there. Of course korang bagikan. Duh flutter…

REALITY

But in real life? Library pun KOSONG. Korang pergi library tu pun dah satu benda bagus dah tu. Bwahahahaha. Jadi sila lupakan ada scene a guy/girl nak minta share meja. Conclusion?

“Korang pergi library tu pun dah cukup bagus dah tu.”

 

2^nd scene:

EXPECTATION:

Korang tengah cari-cari buku then when you pick a book, you see his/her eyes di sebelah sana rak buku. Eye contact. Terpesona dengan matanya yang cantik. Eseh…

REALITY

THAT .WILL. NEVER .HAPPEN. Hahahah why? Kan aku dah cakap, library pun kosong, I mean tak ramai orang. So that kind of thing not going to happen.  Buku pun berhabuk. Hahaha . Conclusion nya?

“Fall in love when you see her/his eyes among the books is NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.”
“You only breathe in the dust when you pick the book, not seeing other person’s eyes.”

Jadi byk tak apa yang korang angan2 kan tu trs berkecai lepas aku bagitau ni? hahaha sorry not so sorry fam. But its reality and you need to accept the reality right? Well ini semua hasil pemerhatian aku. Tapi maybe for those yang ada boipren or girlpren tu maybe situasinya jadi lainlah sikit. Yelah aku kan single mingle je sokmo. Haha. I speak in general tho. Tapi kalau korang still nak berpegang dengan apa yang korang angan-angankan tu, teruskanlah. Tak salah pun nak berangan. Ikut korang lah. Aku saje je nak bercerita.

Hmm maybe adalah juga kot difficulties bila korang masuk University ni. terutamanya girls. Boys aku tak tahu. Why? Obviously tho since I’m a girl…. lagi-lagi Bila masuk bab nak pilih baju nak ke kelas, nak make-up and on. Fuh susah wei. Tp tu applied for those yang nak rasa vogue je ke kelas. Aq? Huh plain t-shirt, jeans, tudung paling simple je aku pakai ke kelas. Kalau rajin sket, aku pakai shawl, kemeja and jeans. Ha tu OOTD lah tu bg aku. Make-up? I don’t wear it. Just bedak n lipstick sket je. Hey girls that is the least things you should wear ok? Janganlah muka tu kosong sangat. Jaga jugalah penampilan tu. Tapi aku rasa bdk zaman sekarang semuanya dah pndai make-up kan? Well we’re the 90’ ni kan dikatanya “mereputlah since those 00’ liner dah pandai make-up n lawa2 semua.” Huh IDC tho. We embrace the true beauty ….

(Jangan marah ek 00’ liner. I believe tak semua macam tu. Lobyou)

Okay sebelum aku membebel perkara yang tak sepatutnya, better I stop here. So ada tak lagi scene yang korang nak tanya or nak share yang bila kat Uni ni sama ada ia jadi atau tak? just comment down below.

Bye~ love you all beautiful people. 

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UPDATE ABOUT ME~

Assalamualaikum uolls~ 

Ok so sini nak buat pengumuman. Aq ada buat update kat RSP. So pergi lah usya haha. Seriously cerita tu dah berapa tahun dah aq tulis. Sorry lah sebab still tak siap-siap. Well kalau ada sesiapa yang masih membaca RSP tu mmg aq ucap bebanyak terima kasih. Why? sbb korang masih baca cerita yang entah bila siapnya. Haha.

But aku nak tanya korang sikit ni. Korang rasa ok ke jalan cerita RSP tu? should aq teruskan atau just drop? Or ada somethings off dalam jalan cerita tu? sbb aq rasa ada dan aku nak reconstruct balik jalan cerita tu nanti bila aku ada masa. 

Aku busy wei duduk ni. Assigment belambak, lab report sana-sini. Haha lumrah budak Science. Oh BTW, aq bdk 1st year Biotech. Sekian. Saja nak bgtau. Lol. Aq tengah cuti mid sem sebenarnya tapi sumpah aku tak rasa macam cuti pun. Masa aku habis pergi buat kerja lapangan, assigment (yang tak pernah nak siap) and ....well you know..doing some personal stuff. 

Nak jadi ceritanya, minggu depan is Midterm. Nak tahu apa yang best? Aku tak study apa-apa lagi. Haha matai... Sem satu kat sini dahlah subject yang aku amek semua tak ada kaitan dengan science stream. Nak tahu aq amek apa?

List of my subjects (first sem):
- Biotech n Physics (coz ni fakulti punya core subject.)
- Law
- Arts
- Animation

Nampak tak beza dia tu? Haha. Aq rasa kalau boleh dibuat compartment dalam otak ni, memang aq buat dah. Sebab pd aku, ALL of that subject tak ada kaitan kot antara satu sama lain. Haih~ entahlah nak... so nanti sesiapa yang nak masuk degree tu, pilihlah subject dengan bijak. haha. Tapi setakat ni, aku enjoylah belajar. (Gila tak nak enjoy, 4 TAHUN der aku kat sini.)  erm...apa lagi aku nak merepak ni...

Wei ada lagi ke orang baca sampai saat ni? Wah salutelah kat orang yang baca ni. Punyalah tak ada point entry ni. Haha. Oh! Aq nak promote sket ni. Ada sesiapa baca Wattpad kat sini? Well kalau korang nak cari aq kat wattpad bolehlah cari aku kat:

@mikorin04 

 Nak follow or not up to you lah. Kalau tanya aku kat mana aku lebih aktif hmm...entah. haha. Ikut suka hati akulah nak upload kat mana. Tapi serius, aq ada BANYAK stok cerita nak upload TAPI malangnya tak siap. Idea lost wei tengah jalan. Haih...nilah akibatnya bila budak Sains nak masuk sastera. 

Pray for my idea to come so that I can upload much for you guys.

Ok aq rasa sebelum aku merepak terlalu banyak, baik aq stop. Guys, if you hv anything to say just comment. I don't bite. Komen je apa-apa. Kalau ada haters punya comment aq padam. Apa susah. Haha. (I sound savage. But WHO cares.) Klah, I'll end it here. So rajin-rajinlah usya RSP ok? 

:p

Love you guys. Bye 

My bae cute right? >.<

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TBH I'M A KPOP TRASH

Assalamualaikum and greetings to all.

Ok first I would like to warn you all, this post will be entirely in English since I'm in my fangirling mode. haha also! please pardon my broken English 

So~ I think the title tells it all. Yup! I'm a KPOP trash since I'm in Form 2. (14 years old) haha but I stopped when I'm in form 4, I guess coz I'm crazy with anime. I watch anime a lot that time. But I still watch it until now. I think, starting April 2016 I found this one group that I stan them A LOT. I've heard many kpop songs from many different group but it doesn't attract me to search for their profile and download EVERY SINGLE SONG OF THEIRS. But this one group...they make me fall  head over heels for them. haha. Want to know which group???

It's BANGTAN SONYEONDAN!!!

These seven boys really make my day. Let me tell you guys a little story between me and them. I'm in Form 2 when I first saw them in Music Bank performing N.O. At that time, I thought, 

"Oh, I'm gonna search for them later when I go back home" (since I live in hostel so yeah, I rarely go back to my home.)

I really thought that these group is very cool  with that fierce choreography. But sadly, as time goes by, I forgot about them. At that time, I was really obsessed with BEAST and SHINEE. (Gikwang and Taemin is my ultimate bias actually.) How did I come back to them??? Ha~ this is where the story began.

Around late March 2016, my BFF show me a song by THE ARK, a girl group (but sadly them disband *sob* *sob*) That girl group cover BTS- Boy In Luv dance. I swear they are so cool. (still I can't accept why they're disbanding. Should I make a special article explaining how cool they is??)  

So we decide to see the original version of it and we like the song. At that time, I only like certain songs. Then, I went to my another friends and said that I found this one group and it turn out that BTS is her fav group too. So she's the one give me some of BTS top songs like I Need U, Boy In Luv, Danger and several songs. I listen to it but meh~ still they don't be part of my life yet, >o< She also the one who show me DOPE MV and tells me a lot that I can't take V as my bias as V is her top bias. 

But at that time, I don't know their name and stuff so I just nodded and assure her that I'll never take V from her. (Even I don't know who is who yet at that time.)haha  And one night, I was so bored that I decide to open the Youtube and searching for some new KPOP songs to be added into my playlist. Then I came across DOPE and I rewatched it. Then it continue with Boy In Luv MV, I Need U MV, Danger MV and Run MV. Slowly, they steal my heart and without realizing I'm falling deep and deeper into this darkness  for them. 

Then, I start to download their MV with sub so that I can understand their songs well. Do you know how much time I took to MEMORIZE ALL of their name and face? I took around 1 month? Yup! 1 month. The first member I  can recognize is Jeon Jungkook since we're at the same age and he's handsome. haha (Yep I know typical answer.). So now I've download almost all their songs even from the pre-debut Bangtan. Want to know who is my ultimate bias now is???

Jja jang!! MIN YOONGI!!! 

I really really like him a lot. Haha. Okay, I think I gonna make a special post about ME AND BIAS later so that I can talk a lot about him. But not here. I guess I've talk a lot. So, comment your fav group and your bias in the comment or let's chat in the chatbox/shoutbox or whatever the name is. Haha. Don't worry I don't bite. 

Okay, good night my beautiful people. Have sweet dream. Also good morning and hope you guys have a good day too.

Love You<3 b="">

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My Inspiration

Assalamualaikum and greetings to all.

Hey aq tak tahu ini berita baik atau tak since aku pun tak tahulah ada atau tak orang yang baca apa yang aq tulis kat sini cuma aku nak bagitahu yang InsyaAllah aku akan rajin-rajinkan diri aku menaip disini. sebab I've found my inspiration to write again. Korang nak tahu ke tak???

Tak kisahlah korang nak tahu atau tak, aku tetap nak bercerita. Haha. Ok, there's this on guy and you can say, I know him. Well we have been classmates for 8 months maybe?? And recently, I've found out that he have blog. Suprised? Of course. Haha. (so that I can stalk him) nope! it just that seeing him posting in his blog makes me wanna post here too. 

Blog ni kalau boleh kira tahap berhabuk dia tu rasanya dah boleh sampai setebal berinci-inci dah. haha sorry meh. Aku tak ada masa. Ok balik pada topik, kenapa aku cakap he's my inspiration adalah sebab dia punya isi dalam post dia tu. Well since I know him, i feels like that some of the words is towards me. Lol. but I mean it in a good way. His advice there. Menusuk hati bhai. 

Erm... *a sudden idea lost* wei aku nak cakap apa lagi ni wei?? T.T 

ha! aku nak bagitahu, ada chatbox kat sebelah ni. So korang rajin-rajinlah tegur aku kat sana. (terasa nak melayan pula benda alah chatbox ni) Ha, better korang bagi idea or anythinglah kat situ. Aq boleh jawab.

JUST ASKED MY ABOUT ANYTHING, OR CHAT WITH ME. EVEN IN ENGLISH, I CAN STILL RESPOND TO IT. YOU CAN SAY, I'M QUITE CONFIDENT IN IT. HAHA
KALAU KORANG CHAT MELAYU LAGILAH AKU FAHAM. 

Ok? ok? hmm apa lagi aku nak merepek ni...

cukuplah kot sampai sini. haha idea lost bhai...

jap aq cari idea. Kalau aq jumpa aq bgtau 

hahahhaha

adios lah dulu

 "You Only Live Once, Might Become No 1 At Least Once. - 724148"

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Welcome To My On9 Cafe \(^_^)/

Assalamualaikum!

Hai! Oh lupa nak bagitahu. Aku dah tukar nama. maybe ada visitor2 lama yang terkejut. Alamat sama tapi nama dah lain. Ok guys, jangan nak terkejut sangat yek. Aq dulu yang pakai nama 'ARIE YAYA' tu dah tukar ke 'MIN YOON'. Kenapa? perlu ke aku bagitahu? Hmm... biarlah rahsia. Hahaha

Tak adalah. Kenapa aku tukar nama sebab nama MIN YOON tu lebih dekat dengan aku. Biarlah korang nak kata aku acah-acah Korea ke or Sabahan would say, Trep trep Korea lah tu. But who cares tho. It's my business. Lol. 

And aku macam ala-ala nak buat mcm on9 cafe kunun. haih, nantilah kalau aku ada better idea aku tukar. lagipun korang datang sini bukan nak baca aku bebel. haha. Aku tahu korang datang nak baca cerpen n novel yang entah bila nak update n sambung. Sorry guys. I'm not giving up upon writing. It just that I don't have much time to write. I'm a busy young adult~ and yeah...life is tough.

Anyway ni post for greetings as aq dah tukar nama kan. So just to let you know, I'm not ARIE YAYA but MIN YOON now.  But hey! please don't get me wrong. I'm still the same person as before just...erm what i should say... REBRANDING??? haha

Ok, the real bebelan is in my next post.

Adios for a while!

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AT-TEN~~TION!

Assalamualaikum semua~

wah dah lama betul aku tak menaip kat sini. i really miss you all. *wink* *wink* ok, cukup jiwang-jiwang. (Not like people will read it anyway.) But who cares??? Haha

Ok back to basic. first sekali, memang aku minta maaf sesangat untuk pembaca setia RSP. dah lama sangat aku tak update kan? >.< sorry sesangat. so tu aq bg hadiah, LIMA chapter aq update. haha. tapi lepas ni tak tahulah bila pula... 

DAN! 

sila-silalah baca juga essay bi yang tak berapa power tu. sesaja buang masa cuti buat benda tu. 

oh, cakap pasal cuti. cuti aku dah nak habis. hujung bulan ni, aku akan daftar degree. jadinya makin berhabuklah blog ni... haih kenapalah aku terlalu busy sejak kebelakangan ni. tapi yg jadi masalah utamanya adalah sebab aku tk ada laptop. sebab tu aku tak rajin nak menulis. menulis dlm phone...huh faham2 jelah. typo sana, typo sini. menyampah aku. baiklah aku bersabar tunggu laptop aku jatuh dari langit. haha lol. 

tapi seriusly, aku berterima kasih sangat kat engkorang yang masih sudi membaca cerita aku kat sini. walaupun aku update slow... tapi nak buat macam mana... being a young adult is not an easy task man...

jadi kat sini, aku nak tanya, apa pendapat korang tentang blog ak ni? ok tak? cerita2 yang aku tulis tu ok tak? kalau ada apa2 yang korang nak cakap, tulis je kat ruang komen tu. InsyaaAllah aku baca semua dan balas semuanya. bergantung pada keadaan aq time tu. haha. oh novel RSP tu klu rasa ada ayat yang agak cringe tu, silalah faham bahawasanya aku tulis tu dah laaaaamaaa dah. jd ayat mcm pramatang sket. aq x de masa lg nk buat recheck t.t

Ok rasanya cukuplah merepek. waktu sekarang: 1.56 am. Heol! need to sleep rn. apa2 pun hope korang have fun reading my stories here. even tak berapa bagus... haha

Adios! my beautiful people!

(terfikir nak tukar nama blog. any idea???)

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Hello! Hello!

Assalamualaikum my beloved reader's!!

Hai~ lama betulkan tak update. Hmm nak buat macam mana, life is hard. haha. Aq bukan tak nak update, tapi payah nak uodate. Ni pun aq cilok sekejap laptop bapak aq sementara dia tidur. So aq dah update beberapa benda mcm new cerpen and new bab for RSP. Oh oh! Aq tgh buat projek baru. Well tu projek rekaan sendiri. 

MY ENGLISH PROJECT

yang mana aq akan update english short story. InsyaaAllah ia akan jadi bersiri. Berdoalah moga-moga idea aku tak putus. Haha. Cerpen BM? jgn risau sedang dalam proses. Cuma bab novel tu, aq update mmg agak lambat... maklumlah org x ada laptop. *sob* *sob*

Tapi apa-apa pun, perglah usya my new short story juga. Hope you like it.

Lastly for now, hope you all keep giving me your support. I love you all my beautiful readers.

<3 p="">

Bye~ Assalamualaikum.

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I Am So Sorry, This Is Bad News

Assalamualaikum, readers semua...

Macam lama kan aku tak update Rahsia Si Puteri tu... bukan x nak update, tapi aku busy. Sorry semua kalau aku buat semua tertunggu-tunggu. Jadi untuk kali ini, aq bagi korang semua 3 update. Hmm, sebagai tanda minta maaf. 

Forgive me meh...

Jadi dengan update yg ada tiga tu, aku harap korang semua besabarlah pula untuk beberapa bulan akan datang lepas ni. Ya... balik pada topik tu. THIS IS A BAD NEWS. *sobs* Aku akan rindu Faiq dan Arina. Tapi nak buat macam mana, status aku yang sekarang ni tak mengizinkan.

Meh aku cerita sedikit keadaan aku sekarang. Bukan nak minta simpati. Haha. Tapi lebih pada untuk memahami. Hmm... aku sebenarnya tengah cuti tp minggu depan aku midsem. N sekarang ni adalah sem final aku kat sini. In Shaa Allah, bulan 5 aku habis asasi. YEA!!! \^_^/

Tapi dalam happy ada sedih gak. Sedih tinggal member. N bulan 9 nnti, aku masuk degree. Hmm bila dah masuk degree, lagilah aku tak dapat nak janji boleh update banyak2. Yang tu depend pula course apa yang aku dapat. Haha, banyak sungguh halangannya. But yeah, that is life man... 

Tapi goal aku sebelum masuk degree, aku akan cuba siapkan RSP n publish kan buku tu. Well aku harap, by this year, RSP dapat dibukukan. In Shaa Allah. Oh, one more problem yang buat aku jarang update is, yang sebenarnya aku x de lappy. Haha. Selama ni, aku pinjam laptop ayah aku. Jadi bila aku jauh di perantauan yakni di Sabah, aku cilok-cilok laptop member. Huhu. But no biggie, member aku baik. Haha, thanks to her, ada rezeki korang baca update2 kat sini.

So, sempena last sem ni, aku minta maaf kat semua readers, manalah tahu penulisan aku ada buat korang terasa dan sebagainya. Doakan aku gais, semoga aku dapat result yang baik, dapat course yang terbaik. (Aku nak medic benornya tapi result so-so. Haha.) Doakan juga aku dan kawan-kawan aku semua dapat jawab exam midterm n final exam dengan cemerlang, dipermudahkan oleh Allah. Doakan juga moga-moga RSP berjaya dibukukan. Hoho.

Last but not least, hope korang terus beri sokongan pada penulisan aku. Lepas RSP siap, aku akan segera buat novel yang baru. (sekarang pun aku dah start tulis novel baru tu. Dalam test pad. Maklumlah, x de laptop. tulis dalam HP x best.) 

K, thats all. Thank you my lovely readers.

Assalamualaikum.

p/s: gambar x de kaitan....

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A GIRL IN THE ROOM

This is a tale of a girl who lives inside a transparent room with a clear glass door. When she was still a kid, she use to believe that the outside must be a happy world since that is what she always saw from her transparent room. She used to believed that her upcoming live will be like those in fairy tale and a prince will come to her someday. She used to have a big dream.

As she grow up, she saw many things from inside her room. There are people who crying, become miserable, cracked and twisted. If she saw happiness, it will then slowly faded away.

Slowly, she become fear to step out of her room.

Slowly, those fear had turn into a life philosophy.

Slowly, she make her own definition about life.

Sometimes, happiness do come in her life. But it was not long as then it faded away and leaving a heartache behind. Even with those heartache, she still trying to believe in life and always said,

"It's gonna be okay. It's gonna be okay."

She tried to built friendship and relationship but...it seems like it does not work. Her life is still the same.

Her friendship was cracked. She does not know where was the wrong. She just want someone to lean on not the one to be lean on.

Relationship? It's far away from working. Everything seems to be far away from her. Even she reach out to that person, she just cannot reach him. No matter how many and how hard she tried.

But she still continue her life with a little believe in dream. She hope that dream can help her this time.

Because the room and door that used to be transparent and shiny now slowly turn into a darkness. Inside it have turn blurry. It's suffocating.

As she tried to chase her dream while forgetting the relationship and just cooping up with people that give her benefit only, she again fall. The dream that uses to shine have now turn blurr and slowly faded. She stared at the dusty door. Than she looks around her.

Ah... She just realized. The room has turn into a dark room with dusty door. And the most amazing part is, she became familiar with this kind of room. Even she cannot see her way outside, she still happy. Her new life philosophy,

"Expect less, hurt less."

That is what she believe right now and that will keep her moving forward. Moving forward? That's quite not a good choice of word. Maybe she can say that she just live her life. Following the things that have been decided. She does not have dream, friend and relationship to be looking forward into.

But no one know that deep inside, there is something that is called loneliness. This loneliness keep ask her to rebel and keep dragging her into darkness. She then close her heart, built a thick wall and never want to try to get out of that room. She start to feel sick with people. She want to be alone.

Is it hard to get someone who understand her?

Is it hard to get someone who can hugged her, give her comfort in her hardest time?

Is it hard to get someone who can always listen to her story and make her smile?

Is it that hard? Is it that hard?

She does not want much. Just someone who can give her strength. Someone who she can rely to.

She's crying, she's screaming in rage, she's hurting to the point she become imune to the pain, but no one knows. No one care. Now, she don't care anymore about life.

Maybe someday, someone will come to get her out of that room. She does not want to be in there forever but she does not have anymore strength left to clear the dust and make the door shines again and step out of it.

Someday, sometimes, someone will surely come to rescue.

At least she want to believe in that this time to keep her alive. For now, she will keep saying,

"Don't worry. It will be okay. Someone will come. Just believe in it this one last time."

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